Sssshh...

The weekend was helluva eventful - I had the best time! I laughed and drank and ate. Boy did I eat. I'll have to blog about that a little later because it was, like I said, eventful.

Right so, I have been feeling a little demotivated and well, to be totally honest completely and utterly flat. Yes, it's this time of the year and yes I need a holiday (I think I've stressed the last point enough) but I've been feeling really down. I'm just finished and tired and demotivated. I find myself feeling this at this time of the year purely because it always makes me evaluate my life. I look back and think either: "Great year!"; "Gosh, it's been sweet and sour!" or I think "Good grief. End already."
It's been sweet and sour for me this year. It also makes me think about where I am going, what I am doing and what opportunities are around the corner for me to either create or sieze.
So, with that said, I figured I could either wallow in self pity or do something to get myself out of the negative space.
Anyways, I know some of you sceptics are going to roll your eyes, but hear me out.

I decided to pop The Secret DVD on this morning and watch it. For some personal reason, this always makes me feel better and makes me feel like I can create my own destiny, opportunities etc and just makes me feel motivated again. I started writing down everything that I am grateful for and what my goals are.
I was in the middle of watching the DVD and writing my list when I had to pause it to answer my phone.
It was a good friend/colleague of mine who gave me some incredible news. I have an audition tomorrow for something that has been a dream of mine since 15 - in fact when I was getting into the industry I stated that I would absolutely LOVE to do XYZ.
I now have an opportunity to go for it. Dude. I am so utterly excited and yet at the same time I really don't want to jinx anything.
I was just freaked out and had goosebumps because it was really strange considering the circumstances. I know, right? You damned sceptics! I know you're thinking it's like one of those bogus emails of: send this to 203 of your friends and in 4 hours your wish will come true...but dude...goosebumps. Oh well, I was chuffed and weirdly enough, I'm feeling a lot better too! LOL


Cross all things crossable please! No. Seriously. Grab a Troll, a four leaf clover, whatever and any other good luck charms you have lying around and send them my way!

Feeling happy

I've been going through a fairly weird time. I say weird because it hasn't been absolutely horrible, but it hasn't been absolutely brilliant and yet, some aspects of my life have been horrible and some have been brilliant.
Like I said. Weird.


I am a very positive person and lately, I haven't been. It has been a strange feeling, a feeling I really don't like.
The worst thing though, is that it is a vicious circle. From my negativity, a lot of negative things have been happening . I guess I can say I've had a bout of bad luck and enough is enough.


I know there is controversy as to whether or not The Secret actually works. Thing is, I (without knowing) have always lived my life like this and a lot of what I have and am grateful for in my life, has come from thinking and imagining myself with it or in the situation etc.


I have lost that and I am a true believer that your thoughts manifest things/situations.


I went out to buy The Secret as I want to own my own copy, so that if I do have a bad day, I can pop it in and feel enlightened. I watched it this morning before I left for work and it is really incredible. It is what I have been needing to make me feel more positive about life. What a little gem. Sure...that too was a mind set, but my man put it in a very brilliant light: "Anything that makes you feel positive can only be a good thing. No matter what it is."
Clever thing.


So here is to a Renewed Me. Here is to goodness and greatness and all things lovely and wonderful. Here is to optimism. Here is to happy days.