Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Sssshh...

The weekend was helluva eventful - I had the best time! I laughed and drank and ate. Boy did I eat. I'll have to blog about that a little later because it was, like I said, eventful.

Right so, I have been feeling a little demotivated and well, to be totally honest completely and utterly flat. Yes, it's this time of the year and yes I need a holiday (I think I've stressed the last point enough) but I've been feeling really down. I'm just finished and tired and demotivated. I find myself feeling this at this time of the year purely because it always makes me evaluate my life. I look back and think either: "Great year!"; "Gosh, it's been sweet and sour!" or I think "Good grief. End already."
It's been sweet and sour for me this year. It also makes me think about where I am going, what I am doing and what opportunities are around the corner for me to either create or sieze.
So, with that said, I figured I could either wallow in self pity or do something to get myself out of the negative space.
Anyways, I know some of you sceptics are going to roll your eyes, but hear me out.

I decided to pop The Secret DVD on this morning and watch it. For some personal reason, this always makes me feel better and makes me feel like I can create my own destiny, opportunities etc and just makes me feel motivated again. I started writing down everything that I am grateful for and what my goals are.
I was in the middle of watching the DVD and writing my list when I had to pause it to answer my phone.
It was a good friend/colleague of mine who gave me some incredible news. I have an audition tomorrow for something that has been a dream of mine since 15 - in fact when I was getting into the industry I stated that I would absolutely LOVE to do XYZ.
I now have an opportunity to go for it. Dude. I am so utterly excited and yet at the same time I really don't want to jinx anything.
I was just freaked out and had goosebumps because it was really strange considering the circumstances. I know, right? You damned sceptics! I know you're thinking it's like one of those bogus emails of: send this to 203 of your friends and in 4 hours your wish will come true...but dude...goosebumps. Oh well, I was chuffed and weirdly enough, I'm feeling a lot better too! LOL


Cross all things crossable please! No. Seriously. Grab a Troll, a four leaf clover, whatever and any other good luck charms you have lying around and send them my way!

8 comments:

po said...

I am fondling my rabbits ear for you Blondie.

Well, I don't have one but I am doing it in my mind.

Mrs.D said...

lol, I haven't seen one of those trolls in forever! They were all the rage when I was growing up.

The Blonde Blogshell said...

That sounds like a new form of beastiality(sp?) Po...argh -sorry that was gross! LOL

Thanks babe -you rock
x

The Blonde Blogshell said...

I LOVED trolls Mrs. D! I'm so sorry they're not all the rage still...pity that! I think I'll wear my Trolls T-shirt one of these days.. ;-)

Prixie said...

ah, dont u just love the universe and its ways. keeping my fingers (&toes) crossed!

The Divine Miss M said...

THOUGHTS ARE WITH YOU!!!!

Being Brazen said...

heehee...I used to have a pink haired troll

Good luck with the audition:)

MidniteGem said...

Positive vibes being sent back to SA for you!

I do beleive in all of that stuff - but yeah dont tell people often becuase everyone is so skeptical!