The ultimate betrayal.

How much can one person really handle? No really. I would seriously like to know that.

I've always believed that God doesn't allow someone to go through any more than they can handle.

I don't think I can take much more.

I have been betrayed by people I never in a million years would have thought that they'd betray me. I have heard things that have shocked me to the core. I. cannot. believe. this.

Who have I pissed off "up there"? Is this my karma for something? Really? I just don't get it, but I can't take much more and I have a feeling this is only the beginning of stories to come.

I am so hurt (that word "hurt" doesn't really explain how I feel - it is four lettered though) I feel shattered, my heart is so heavy I think it just may stop (sounds dramatic, but seriously) and I haven't been able to keep food down in a few days now.
I think I've become a break up bullimic. If there is such a thing.

I know this is dramatic and I will delete this post, but I can't scream and shout right now and this is my only avenue to really get it out.

I feel better now.